"Good things come to those who wait".
- aubreykmclaughlin
- Apr 29, 2019
- 3 min read
How many of us are working towards a dream, but are also completely impulsive and lack patience? I am one of those people who sees something they want, and will immediately make it mine. It's why I have no savings to speak of, and why I will go full force into any new endeavor. I don't often give up, but man, do I ever get frustrated when things don't come easy.
This charming little saying works in every aspect of life. As I mentioned, I have no savings. Well, I decided to fix that, aggressively pay back debt, and start saving at the beginning of April. I had a plan to be completely paid up on all of my bills by May 1st, to have $100 in my savings account, and to be on track to have my credit cards paid off by January. Do you know what happened? Life had other plans, some of my income dropped off and an emergent expense came up. So, I paid down half of what I wanted to pay, and had to use the $50 I had in savings to bail us out of our new financial downturn.
Does this mean that all of my plans are gone for good? That now I guess I'm just not going to get my cards paid down, or a savings account established? Nope, it just means I have to begin from a new starting line. It might take longer than I anticipated, but now I know that my plan needs to allow for the life events that come with having 4 children, 10 pets, a husband, a home business and a heartbeat (any individual will encounter set backs in their plans, you do not need to be a hyperactive mama of 4 for the universe to laugh at your plan and throw in a monkey wrench.)
The same, of course, goes for my health goals. I've lived in my body for 30 (31 on Friday) years, and for a better part of my life, I've had terrible habits. It's taken me years, several pregnancies, and more pizza and wings than I care to remember to create the body I'm currently living in. It's going to take more than 1 year to turn it into the well oiled machine I envision myself to be. I do my workouts in a room with no mirrors, or at Orange Theory, where the mirrors are cleverly placed from my chest up, where that lovely belly I have honestly earned is not visible.
This weekend, I decided I would do some videos of my workouts. I wanted to see my form, and maybe even show off a little. Hoooo boy, did those videos ever humble me, and no, they did not go live then. I can lift heavy, I'm attempting things I never would have thought of doing before, and I'm running a sub 10 minute mile, but I do not look at all how I want to look. Everything spills over, there are squishy bits I didn't know I had, and none of that shows up when I'm standing tall, posing for a shot. WWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYY IS THIS TAKING SO LONG!?!?!
Well, because it took you 29 solid years to get here, of course! Why on earth did I think I would suddenly look like an athlete after I'm sure I've eaten my weight in cheesecake over my lifetime, and done very, very little exercise to compensate for it? I'm discouraged, of course, but that does not mean I'm going to give up. Just like I won't give up my morning Yoga practice in my living room, even though my body is fighting back on all of the bending and stretching, and I feel like crying and rocking back and forth about 5 minutes in to sitting cross legged.
Believe me when i way, I do not want to show these to you, but this is part of my journey. This is where I am now, and I'm proud of how far I've come. This is the hard part.
What is holding you back from working towards your dreams? Are you trying to skip the struggle? Are you hoping for a quick and easy result when you're working towards a difficult goal? Friends, I understand the desire for immediate results. I struggle with my impulsiveness daily, but nothing worth having comes easy. I'm looking forward to the day that I can show you these exact same videos without first having picked them apart, even though I'm sure I'm still at least a year out from that. Don't let the process drag you down, no one gets to running without first learning to walk.
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